Private or new blog?

I've been running across several blogs that are going private after their baby is born because of various reasons. The thought honestly hadn't crossed my mind. The only thing that had crossed my mind was setting up a new blog for outside friends/families who don't know about our struggles to get and stay pregnant. I would like to be able to share with them after our little guy gets here....so my question is, do I go private and only allow people I know to read? Do I leave it public and hope that no one has the time or desire to go back and read through all our crap? Or can I move the rest of my posts and start 'fresh' with this one? Or do I just decide that I don't really care and do whatever is easiest?? I'll probably go with the last one because that seems to be the path I've been taking lately.

That's the thought for the day....

36 weeks

27 days left....but who's counting! Things are about the same. Same issues, same fears, same excitements....well, maybe a little more excitement!

~still having swollen feet
~still having numb fingers
~still having a tough time sleeping
~having to pee even more at night (who thought that could happen??)
~still need a few things for this little guy...going shopping this weekend
~still need to clean/organize his room
~still excited...can't wait to meet this little guy
~still nervous about staying over night in the hospital

We have another doctor appointment tomorrow. Should just be a regular appointment. No internal checking or anything out of the ordinary. That will be next week. So should be a quick appointment. I don't really have much to report to the doctor. A few contractions here and there, but nothing note worthy.

I had my last swimming class this week. I'm sort of glad it's over. But it's just one step closer to the end! I'm feeling more and more ready everyday! I know I can never be totally prepared, but I still think I'm ready as I will ever be! I would like to keep him safe inside for a few more weeks....but after that, any time is fine!!

The aftermath

The shower was fun. There were a lot of people there and it was nice to see some of Dean's side of the family. His parents are so weird, we/they don't do a lot with the extended family. So I'm glad we got to do something with them. His mom was only semi-crazy. She basically didn't speak to me. I don't know if she doesn't like me, jealous of me, or just doesn't know how to be social? She seems to talk to everyone else just fine. Sometimes I wonder if she is jealous of my relationship with Dean. Since her husband is such a jerk, I can imagine she wishes things were different sometimes. Who knows. I feel bad that I'm always bad mouthing her, but when I only see her a few times a year and she barely speaks to me, I feel I have a bit of a right to be annoyed. I think I wrote about this before but they bought a farm in Indiana to put their horses on (well the 1 horse they own, they're buying 2 more apparently). And they were there for 8 days, came home last Wednesday and then left again last night and will be home sometime the end of this week. So my question is, are they going to try to make a point to be in town when the baby comes? It's the 1st grandchild....there aren't any do-overs. I hope they understand that. I'm trying to put it out of my mind though....it's not my problem if they choose to not be around.
Anyway, back to the shower, everyone was very nice (except for the 'oh my, your huge' and 'that baby will come any time'....I don't feel that big!) But I guess 80 year old women are allowed to say whatever they want! The food was great, one of Dean's cousins made the cake and it was beautiful. She's starting a little business so I hope I can send some people her way. She made her own wedding cake back in May and it was beautiful and delicious! And of course this little boy got tons of things. A lot of clothes and other things for his room. He's going to be one very loved little boy! Now I have to finish up the thank you cards. I got most of the written, but not addressed. I hope to have them in the mail tomorrow or Wednesday. And then I need to go through all that stuff and see if there's anything I need to take back, exchange or wash. I'm sure a little of all 3! I also need to make a list of the things we still need before he gets here. We have most everything, but still need a few little things here and there. And I'm sure I'll be running to the store tons after he is born. But of course I feel the need to be somewhat organized and prepared!
So overall the day was nice and we both had a good time. I'm glad Dean was able to come and enjoy it with me. I think he had a good time too! Now it's time to try to make it through another week. Can't believe we only have 4 more to go through!! Can't wait!

Baby Shower today!!!

Getting excited for the baby shower today! Hoping for a drama free day from the MIL....

Will update later when I get home!

More appointments

I think I'm going to feel like the doctors office is my 2nd home before too long. We had another appointment today. Had the group B strep test. It wasn't that bad. The doctor last week said they'd check my cervix, but apparently they don't start that until 37 or 38 weeks. I'm glad to put that off a little! The doctor mentioned how swollen my feet are. I think it's because of going to the game, sitting in the car and then sitting in the stands. And it was pretty humid yesterday. They just haven't gone back down. I'll try working on that this weekend! I'm trying to keep them up at work, but it's hard to remember! He also felt around externally on the belly to try to feel the baby. He squeezed the baby's head and it sort of hurt...but the good thing is he's head down. He said that for the most part after 34 weeks, once they go down, they stay that way. So I'm hoping that's the way it stays for me! I think he's been head down for a while though. When he kicks/moves, I mostly feel it up on top and the sides. But from where he was squeezing, I'm pretty sure he hasn't dropped or anything. It seemed pretty high up. But everything else seemed fine. Weight is up (not too happy about that), BP is fine, HB is fine. So overall I think it was a good appointment. We go back next week.

I did ask him about my situation with my mom. She's due to have chemo in Detroit the week of my due date. Now let me preface this by saying I do not want to be induced unless absolutely necessary. I realize that no one can predict when a baby is going to be born. And lastly I know in the grand scheme of things, this is not that big of deal. HOWEVER....it's the birth of my 1st child, her first grandchild and I would like her in the same city as me. So I figured I'd bring it up just to get it off my chest. I told him I didn't want to be induced, I told him I know there's no way to tell when this is going to happen, but I just wanted him to know. And maybe if by my last appointment on the 20th it looks like there's no way I'll be delivering anytime soon, she can go on Monday and get it over with and be home for another 3 weeks. I feel better having them know my situation. Now maybe I can stop thinking about it.

We had lunch and then back to work. Tomorrow is a day of cleaning and laundry and Sunday is the baby shower with the in-laws. I will be glad when it's over. I get so anxious when I have something to do with his parents. Especially after the last shower when she announced she didn't want to/wasn't ready to be a grandma. We'll see how she acts in front of her own family. I am making Dean go with me though, so that will hopefully help. And Dean wants to talk names again. At least to 'try' to come up with a name. I think we're going to start by writing down all the names we like and go from there. And this is going to sound super mean, but I don't really want the first people we tell to be his family who don't even want to be grandparents or have us as a part of their family...I'm a brat, I know. We probably won't even come up with anything anyway.

Well, time to head back to the couch and put my feet up....I don't think they can get any more swollen than they already are!!

35 weeks

Nothing too new to report. Still tired, sore, and crabby. After hearing the story of my aunts friends grandson, I will endure whatever it takes to get this baby to full term. Her baby will have to stay in the NICU for 1-5 weeks depending on how he does. I know it's hard sleeping, my back hurts and I'm for the most part crabby all the time but it's worth it for a healthy baby boy. The belly is getting bigger. He doesn't seem to have 'dropped' yet. I'm curious to see how that changes the shape/size of the belly.

We're off to a Tigers game tomorrow. I'm excited to go. We're hoping for no rain or storms. We're having dinner with my brother too. He has his 2nd round of boards this week so he can't spend the afternoon at the game, but he can do dinner.

We have another doctor appointment Friday. They will do the group b strep test and do an internal check. Yikes. Not exactly pleasant but I'm curious about the whole process.

I need to get some chores done and get ready for tomorrow.

Daddy boot camp

Dean went to daddy boot camp over the weekend. It's a 3-4 hour class just for dads, taught by dads. He seemed to really enjoy it. And he liked telling me all the stuff he learned. They talked about a lot of things we talked about in other classes but also some new stuff. I'm really glad he went. I think he's getting more and more excited for the arrival of this little guy! We even talked names again last night. Still nothing picked out, but we're getting closer!! Apparently Dean doesn't want to pick a name because he's worried he'll find a name he likes better....sort of funny!

Yesterday we went to a funeral of a good family friend. He was 91 and had a good life, but of course it's still sad. But I was glad to be able to be a part of saying goodbye.

It feels like another busy week around here. Work is slow, but outside activities are busy! Swimming tonight, Tigers game Thursday and in law baby shower on Sunday. I'm hoping with these busy weeks, the time will go by faster! I just found out my aunts friends daughter who was due the same day I was, had her baby last night. She didn't want to tell me because I'd be jealous. I want to meet my baby, but this is a bit early!! Maybe in a few more weeks!! But both she and the baby are doing well, so that's good. I don't know if it's genetic or what, but her mom had her and her brother 4 and 6 weeks early too. I'm just glad they're both doing well!

35 weeks tomorrow...looking forward to it!! And hoping for no rain on Thursday!

Happy anniversary

Today is my 5 year wedding anniversary. I can't believe it's been 5 years since I married the love of my life. Time sure does fly. And according to everyone I know with kids, it apparently goes even faster after the baby arrives. Yikes. We have basically no plans for our anniversary. We decided that we didn't need to do gifts although my sweet husband brought home flowers yesterday so they'd be there when I got home. We're going to a Tigers game next week, so we decided to call that our anniversary outing. A big outing, I know! haha. But it will be nice to spend some time with Dean. We've both been so busy, we aren't hardly home at the same time unless it's to sleep!
We had an appointment with the doctor today. Basically all my ailments are normal, there's nothing they can do about it and she didn't seem all that sympathetic! HA. She probably hears pregnant women complain about that all the time. I guess as long as it's normal, I'm ok with it. Not happy about it, but I guess it's ok. We also found out that we have to start going every week now. I thought it was after 36 weeks, but apparently it's now. I have the group b strep test next week and she said they'd probably start checking to see if I was dilated etc next week. Although only being 35 weeks, there probably isn't anything to be checking. So we made all our appointments until our due date. If we need any after that we can make them as we go. It's exciting to see it all down on paper like that! Hopefully the next few weeks will fly by:-) Can't wait to meet this little guy!!

34 Weeks

Apparently things get worse right before the baby comes....I have had an easy pregnancy but these little issues are starting to get me down...I know these are little but right now it's just hard to take
~my 2nd and 3rd fingers on my right hand are numb/tingly all the time.
~I threw up for the first time on Monday night. It hasn't happened again since, but it wasn't that fun.
~My hips are killing me
~I have a shooting pain down the right side of my back, through my butt and down my leg
~I can't go to the bathroom (even with my increased fiber and stool softener regiment). It may be time for some Meta.mucil or whatever it's called.
~I'm not sleeping for shit. I'm up 3-5 times a night to either pee or switch positions. And usually one of those times I can't fall back to sleep. It's great.
~work is sucking so it's making all the rest of this stuff hard to deal with. I don't think it would be that bad if I could get some sleep!!

At least it's almost Friday and I can relax all weekend. We have an appointment on Friday. I plan on bringing up some of this with the doctor, but I'm sure they'll just say it's normal. I only have 6 weeks left. I suppose I can deal with it. I have some fun things to look forward to in the next few weeks, so hopefully that will help keep my mind off of it. And I'm going to try really hard to enjoy the last few weeks of just me and my husband before our lives change forever.

hospital bags and car seats???

So my husband was giving a lesson to these 2 women yesterday and they were asking about the baby and all that goes along with it. Apparently they both agreed that we should have the car seat installed already and the hospital bag packed. The one went on to say that they went into labor the day after they installed the car seat (3 weeks early) and the other went into labor 4 weeks early! Yikes. I know I only have about 6 weeks left, but I thought I had plenty of time to pack and all that. And we were planning on doing the car seat around the beginning of August. Too late? Too early? Who knows I guess. So I decided I would at least start a hospital bag last night. I got a little bag of toiletries, makeup, Tylenol etc packed up. It's not much, but at least it's a start. I do however think I'll wait a few more weeks to actually put it all in a bag.

For now I'm going to finish cleaning the house and then off to run a few errands....hopefully I can get just what I need at Target and nothing extra (yeah right!!)

FRIDAY!!!

I for one am thrilled it's finally Friday. This week has been too busy at work. I enjoy the quiet without the crazy co-worker, but I don't enjoy doing all the work myself. She'll be back Monday, so then I can relax a little more while I'm here. And I have fun plans in the next few weeks, so I'm already looking forward to that. Dinner with friends at our house tomorrow night, haircut (which I need badly) next week, hanging out with good friends on Thursday....hopefully next week will go by fast! And according to my 'plan' 6 weeks from today will be my last day of work! I'm super excited about that. 6 weeks doesn't sound too long!

I'm also hoping to go through some of the baby stuff this weekend, get it washed and put away and organize his room again. Maybe if I do it once now before our next shower, I won't have a huge job in August!!

Hope everyone else has a great weekend too!!

33 weeks

So we're feeling a little better now. Not sure where the mini breakdown came from. Probably just too much going on in my head. Probably will happen again before this is all over with.

Baby is around 4.5 pounds and measuring about 17 inches long. About the weight of an adult duck. He's still moving around in there but it's a different kind of movement. He doesn't have as much space so it's more pushing than sudden jabs. I have been having a lot of bra.xton hi.cks. They don't have any regularity to them and don't usually last too long. But I'll keep an eye on them. I haven't had anymore spotting, so I guess we're in the clear on that for now. I have had a few issues with my feet getting too swollen. Yesterday they were like 3 times their normal size. My poor toes hurt to bend, they were so swollen. But I had swimming and they seemed a lot better after that. I really need to get into a better routine with that. I have been skipping more than I should! So I plan to go on Friday, my regular morning!! Our next appointment isn't until next Friday. For having them every 2 weeks, it does seem like a long ways away. Only 3 more weeks until we go every week! Yikes.

So overall a good week. I must say I do enjoy seeing the days and weeks tick by!! Only 49 days left!! woohoo!!!

Pity party table for 1 please

Disclaimer: If you are currently trying to get pregnant, having a good day and don't want some whiny post to get you down, or just don't feel like listening to it....I suggest you STOP reading right now!

I feel like I've done a pretty good job during this pregnancy rolling with the punches. There hasn't really been that much to deal with. No morning sickness, nothing too horrible to deal with. But I am here to tell you, I'm sort of over it. I'm over the constant nosebleeds. I'm over not sleeping, I'm over the fat fingers and feet. My back hurts, I had the most horrible headache yesterday (which I haven't had a headache in months!). It was so bad it woke me up at 2am and I didn't think I was going to fall back to sleep. I realize that when the baby comes I won't be sleeping much either, but I feel that might be a different kind of not sleeping. I'm tired of people telling me how hot I'm going to be between now and August. Tired of them telling me how bad labor is. Basically I woke up on the wrong side of the bed one of the many times I was out of my bed last night....I'm hoping this will pass as the day goes on.

Now of course I would go through anything to be sure to have a healthy baby. I realize this is just part of the fun, but I'm allowed to have a few days of 'poor me'. It's not always sunshine and rainbows. And right now, it's not.

Happy July 4th!!

Hope everyone has a safe and happy 4th of July! We don't have many plans, Dean is working. But hopefully some fireworks later and a trip to the lake tomorrow. Hoping the weather cooperates!!

Yesterday we picked up our new I.phones. So far I love it. If our old company would cooperate and transfer over our numbers, we'd be all set. I think it will take a little getting used to, but it's fun learning about it and I think it will be quite useful.

Now it's time to get this house cleaned up. Maybe after I can do something fun:)

Long weekend ahead!

I am at the beginning of a long weekend. We have tomorrow off of work and we got out early today....woohoo! We don't have any specific plans but I am going to head to South Haven tomorrow and maybe stop by to see some friends in town from CA on the way. Dean is working basically til dark tonight, most of the day tomorrow and Saturday. So I'm on my own basically. And I think we're going back to South Haven for a boat ride and dinner with my fam on Sunday. Overall it will be a boring weekend, but I will take boring over not working any day! And maybe I can get up some motivation to get some more baby stuff ready!!

Apparently the spotting/discharge issue is over. Haven't had anything since yesterday after lunch. I feel normal for the most part (whatever normal is these days). I will keep an eye out for anything out of the ordinary, but I think it was just a fluke and I'm fine.

Hope everyone has a safe and happy 4th of July holiday weekend!!

Slightly worried

So I'm not sure what to title this post. I woke up this morning to some pinkish spotting. After a normal appointment yesterday, no internal exam and no se.x I was a little concerned. It wasn't a lot and not bright red and has tapered off now to mostly brown and more like discharge than anything else. I'm trying not to freak out but every time there is a twinge or pain in my stomach I of course think the worse. I was trying to wait to see what comes of it this morning. So far it doesn't seem like much, but I still think I should let the office know.

I've read a little online (probably a bad idea) but it said that sometimes you can spot before losing the muc.us pl.ug. Seems a little early for that. But apparently it can happen.

I've been saying I am so anxious to meet my baby and can't wait for him to get here, but I didn't mean this early! If anyone has any stories out there about weird spotting like this....please let me know. In the meantime, I'll call and wait and hope!

32 weeks

Little baby is growing like a week. According to the website updates he is almost 4 pounds and 17 inches long. I can feel him moving around in there a lot! Our latest appointment was yesterday. Apparently all my concerns are normal and she said everything seemed fine. Heart rate around 150. I didn't gain any weight from the last appointment (which seems a little odd to me). I was tired yesterday but still dragged my self to swimming. Only 4 more weeks of that! I still like it but I'm so much more tired now. It makes it harder to want to go.

Still feeling pretty good other than swollen feet and hands. And apparently having braxton hicks contractions, which the doctor seems to think are fine. Looking forward to the holiday weekend (mostly because we get Friday off!) I don't know what we're doing yet. Probably hanging out at the lake. Sounds good to me!