Weight check

We had a quick appointment on Thursday to check Patricks weight....and I'm happy to report he's up to 12 pounds 12 ounces! YAY!!! He gained almost a pound. The doctor was happy with that weight and said to keep doing what we're doing. He checked out a few more things and Patrick wowed him with his rolling ability and then we were on our way. It's such a relief to leave the doctor's office feeling like we're doing something right. I love our doctor! He always makes us feel like we're doing right by our boy! We go back in another month for his 6 month appointment. At which the doctor said he'll probably have teeth because (and I quote) he's a 'drool bucket'! haha!! I failed to mention he's been drooling like that for months! I guess we'll see. So that's the latest with the boy!

Cancer sucks

Things with my mom's chemo were going ok. She had some growth on her last scans, but not enough to be too concerned about. The treatment is going ok, same laundry list of side effects, but she tolerates it ok. The drive to Detroit every 3rd week is getting tiresome for both of them. But the drug seemed to be working. Seemed to be doing what it is supposed to be doing. Thursday at her appointment, she was kicked off her study. Apparently the drug company didn't agree with how they read the report. And after several phone calls, re-reads, and discussions with the lead doctor on the study, they are not willing to jeopardize the study results and leave her on it. CRAP. So now it's back to square one. She will do a few treatments here with her old cancer center and wait for another study to open up. They are pretty certain she will qualify for one with no problem. My mom takes everything so well. Just keeps on truckin' and never lets on that this is a big deal....but this is a BIG deal. What if she doesn't qualify for a new study? What if there's nothing new out there for her to try? The old treatment wasn't as effective as it was when she started it. There are other drugs out there but they make her incredibly sick. Needless to say the last 15 months have been a blessing. It was great she was accepted to the study. Great they kept the growth at bay for so long. Great that the side effects weren't that bad. We all knew this was coming eventually, but were hoping it would last a little longer. So for now we wait. Wait for something new. Something better. And hope in the meantime she can continue to do as well as she has in the last 15 months!

Single parenting

It's not what I thought it would be like. It's easier at the times I thought it would be the hardest. It's hardest at times I am not expecting it to be. Needless to say, I don't think I'm cut out for it and I can't wait until Tuesday! Patrick has been so good this weekend. He got himself overtired yesterday and had a meltdown before bed. But as soon as bedtime rolled around he went right to sleep. And he's been getting up an hour earlier than normal (which is still 7:30 so not too early) but I'm not sure why. But he wakes up happy and that's all I can ask for. We've kept ourselves busy but being in this big empty house all night is lonely! We're headed to my parents today for a while this afternoon. Hopefully that will break up the day. And I have to go to work tomorrow. I guess I'd better get busy doing housework. Apparently when I'm the only one here I don't feel the need to clean as much...so this house needs it!!!

The future

As I was putting Patrick to bed tonight, looking down at his sweet, sleeping face, I couldn't help but think about the future. What will bedtime be like this summer? In a year? Two years? I just can't picture us with a toddler. I can't picture Patrick walking, talking and growing up....why is that? Is that normal? And honestly our days blur together. They are over as quick as they start it seems so I don't have much time to think about all this. But tonight I'm a single parent. Daddy is in Orlando and I have the house and evening to myself and apparently this is where my thoughts are going. I love my sweet baby and that love grows everyday...and I know that means he is growing with it.

Couple more things...

A few things I forgot yesterday....

~ A new favorite pastime is standing up. He loves to hold our hands and stand up. He likes to look around and watch what's going on.



~ He loves to watch the cats. It's like he just started noticing they are around. They usually hide out during the day when he's awake.



~ He is learning to take toys from us. He focuses really hard on it and then snatches it up and puts it right in his mouth. Even if he's crying!



~ He has learned a little separation anxiety. He totally knows when we leave the room!!

Ok I think that's about all...again:-) I think of all these things I want to remember but don't get around to posting them. I guess some things take priority and this isn't always one of them!

22 weeks old - 5 month update

I really can't believe it's been 22 weeks since birthed our sweet boy. Really? 22 weeks? Crazy!

Latest updates:
~ Food - still loves it. We've had peas, sweet potatoes, bananas, applesauce and peaches. So far all are a hit except the peas. They take a little work! We're trying squash this week. Hopefully it goes well.

~ Sleep - still going well. He naps 2-3 times a day (usually 2) for 30-45 minutes each. Although yesterday he shocked me and slept for 2 hours in the afternoon! He's pretty good about going to sleep around 7:30 and sleeping til 8 or 8:30 in the morning.

~ Nursing - going well. He has 1 or 2 bottles while I'm at work and then nurses 3-4 times before bed. So far I haven't had any issues with my supply. The only time I notice anything out of the ordinary is if I haven't had enough water to drink! So I'm working on keeping that up!

~ Schedule - still about the same. I have hopes it will stay this way for a while.

~ Weight - from what we can tell he hasn't really gained since his 4 month appointment. We have a follow up next week. I don't know what they'll do if he doesn't gain much or any weight. He eats fine, doesn't spit up that much and doesn't seem to have any diaper issues (i.e. diarrhea or the like). He seems like a healthy baby to us, so I'm hoping they'll just keep an eye on it.

In other comings and goings around our house, Daddy is headed to the PGA show in Orlando tomorrow. My first time at single parenthood. I took Friday off work, having lunch with a friend on Saturday and probably spending some time at my parents over the weekend. I'm sure it will be fine, but I'm a little nervous about being alone for 5 days with Patrick!! Wish me luck!
I am almost down to my pre pregnancy weight (which for the record was 10 pounds heaver than my pre TTC weight) so I have a ways to go. I kept hoping that nursing would help move that along but so far it doesn't seem to be. I'm trying to watch what I eat and cut out the crappy snacks that seem to sneak up in the afternoon. Maybe that will help. Along with getting my rear back in the gym! We're still debating the day care situation. Trying to figure out when we need it and how frequently. I think we'll have to make an appointment to discuss our needs and see what they say. To say I'm not looking forward to it would be an understatement!!! I hope to have it ironed out in the next month or so. And lastly I got my car back today!!! After almost 8 weeks in the shop after what I would consider a small fender bender, it's finally fixed and back in my garage! Now let's just keep it that way!!

Other than that we're all just anxiously awaiting some warm weather. We had a little tease over the weekend at almost 50*. I can't wait to go strolling through the neighborhood with Patrick, and throw open the windows and let the sunshine come flowing in!

5 Months old

Happy 5 months sweet Patrick...

Updates tomorrow...now it's time for bed!!