Highs and Lows

I realize that life is all about the highs and lows...but sometimes it just sucks. Dean and I were supposed to go to our local parade of homes last night. Of course he had to work so we got a late start. It bothers me that he says he'll be somewhere when he knows full well that he can't get away that quick. Anyway, so we got on our way and looked at some beautiful houses!! I love our new house, but it is fun to look at others! We stopped half way through to have a bite to eat and here's where the blows come. We start talking about the specialist and the appointment and how I'm excited and all this. He basically says nothing. Then he says 'Aren't you scared'? Scared? Um, yes! Terrified, but excited at the same time. And then he goes into this whole thing about he doesn't want anyone to know that we need a specialist to get pregnant. He wants to happen 'on it's own'....what ever that means. So if you know me in real life...don't say anything about this to him! I tried to explain that people don't usually ask how you get pregnant. Most people already know! Sort of funny. So then after he gets over this little hump of nervousness (I can tell by the look on his face that he is nervous and scared at this point...I hate to think how he's going to be on July 10th!! ), he asks if we could have twins with any of these other procedures. And then it comes out...he wants twin girls. WHAT? I was shocked. All this from the man that says if it happens it's good, if it doesn't it's good too...and now he wants twin girls...I was shocked to say the least. I asked if he wanted a boy and he sort of made a face. Too funny! So anyway, God, if you're listening, my husband wants twin girls! I know he loves me and I know he will love our child/children when and if we have them, but this process is really trying my patience!