Exhausted

I don't know that exhausted even comes close to how tired I feel right now.  Between driving to my brothers (which isn't all that far, but it was snowing/raining and I don't exactly know where I'm going makes it more stressful).  Staying in a hotel....alone and then to have to get up and get to the airport parking and then terminal alone w/ my bags is never fun. I finally get to Richmond and have all of about 30 minutes to scarf down some gross sandwich from Star.bucks and then off to meetings for the rest of the day. Then dinner and a comedy show last night. All to get up and do it all again today.  I have had a little rest this afternoon. We went on a film tour (who know all the movies that were filmed in Richmond).  And now dinner in about a half hour.  I'm hoping they send a bus home early because I don't really care to do the bowling later.  I have to be up at 5:15am tomorrow to catch my flight at 7 to be on my way to Marco....whohoo!!!  I can't wait.  That is what is getting me through all this right now. Knowing that at this time tomorrow I will be sitting my butt in a beach chair enjoying the 80* weather.  

The birthday was good...uneventful as you can see above.  Which I suppose is all you can ask for.  I thought maybe for a little birthday surprise this little one would give me some definite movement, but so far nothing.  At least nothing I can note as movement.  But as everyone keeps telling me, this will come.  And 2 weeks from today is our big day.  I cannot wait.  I don't want to wish away the vacation, but I CANNOT wait until April 14th.  I think Dean and I are both excited.  Actually I think my whole family is excited.  

Well, time to put on a happy face again and head down to dinner.  Tomorrow is 19 weeks and I'll be enjoying it on the beach....yipee!!

Sunday

 Today is the start of a busy but fun week!  I am headed to Detroit to meet up with my brother and SIL for dinner.  Then staying in a hotel near the airport and hopping on a plane tomorrow morning to go to a work conference in Virginia.  I'm not really looking forward to that part, but then early Wednesday morning I will hop on another plane to Marco Island til Sunday.  I can't wait for a few days of sun, beach and relaxation.  And then to add to the fun of the week, tomorrow is my birthday.  I'm a little bummed about spending it traveling and going to a conference with people I don't know, but I guess 29 doesn't need a big celebration.  Dean brought me a cute little cake last night and hid a card in the paper this morning.  He's so sweet!  And I did buy myself a Pandora bracelet earlier this month, so that was my early present.  

Well...better get moving.  At least I'm packed, but still have stuff to get done.  Happy travels!

18 weeks

Four and a half months...crazy! Of course feeling thrilled to be at this point. Only another 18 weeks and I'll be almost done! Yikes! If the next 18 go as fast as the first it'll be here before we know it. And with all the travel and stuff to do in the next 3 weeks, it'll be the middle April in the blink of an eye.
According to babycenter the little one is the size of a bell pepper and supposedly I can start feeling some movement. I haven't felt anything yet. It's hard to look for something when you have no idea what it might feel like. I think it's the type of thing you could ask 10 different people and get 10 different answers. But I'm sure I'll feel something soon enough. And of course I can't wait. I'm all of a sudden feeling much more tired again. I was in bed asleep at 9pm last night. Pooping still poses to be a problem but we're working on it. And se.x is still awful. Maybe this little one is trying to tell me it would prefer to be an only child and if it's this bad now maybe I'll never want to do it again:-) Who knows. Other than that we're just happy to be here and love learning new stuff everyday about what pregnancy and a new baby will bring. We both can't wait til August. I love that my husband is as excited as I am about being new parents. I love that he will tell anyone who will listen. I love that he just sounds so happy when I tell him something I learned. He's the best! And I know he's going to be a great father!
Well, I have a crap load of work to do so I'd better get to it. Maybe the faster I work the faster time will go and I'll be at home sitting on my couch in no time!! Wahoo.
Happy 18 weeks!

First day of Spring!

Happy 1st day of spring...although the temp never got over 40 today, I'm still excited that warmer weather is on the way.   This post will be more of a list....Things I can't get off my mind right now:

** We find out what we're having in 3 1/2 weeks (I can't wait)

** I just realized this little one can have a pool party for a birthday...something I always wanted!

** I'm seeing some of my best friends this weekend

** Spring is here

** I go to Florida via Richmond in a little over a week

** I love my husband and love my baby

** I'm exhausted and probably going to bed early tonight

** I think Leon is having a growth spurt because there's a lot of stretching and pain going on for some reason tonight

There's your insight into my mind right now.....it's a mix of emotions.   Gotta run the hubby is home!  Have a great weekend!!

So tired

I'm so tired today....seriously feel like I can hardly function. I didn't get great sleep last night which isn't helping. Nothing else to report.....too tired to report anyway. At least tomorrow is Friday!

17 Weeks

I can't believe another week has gone by. Another week closer to the ultrasound! The appointment yesterday was good. They were really busy and the office seemed FULL of pregnant women. I mean visibly, about to pop, pregnant! It made me feel like a bit of an impostor. I have been wearing maternity shirts this week and I don't do them justice! But I'm sure that baby will pop out before too long. We had a different nurse and a different doctor. I am anxious to meet everyone in the practice. The nurse took the weight, bp and pee test. Asked if we were finding out the sex and refilled my vitamin prescription (why don't they give you enough to make it through the entire pregnancy is beyond me!) Then the dr came in, measured my belly (said it measured ok) and checked the baby's heartbeat. She found it right away and it was loud and steady! She said it was at 152 bpm. A little lower than it has been but still healthy. Although it's not an exact science. She counts the beats as she watches the second hand on her watch. She answered my questions and was very matter of fact about all of them. Apparently all my issues are normal. We have our appointment for the ultrasound on the 14th but they told me that there were no doctors available that morning for an appointment. She proceeded to look through the other doctors schedules that day and found one that had time and told me to inform the scheduler that I was to see him that day and if there was a problem to call her. Sweet! So now we have both appointments on 1 day. Which makes it easier on us! I can't wait. I'm so excited. My mom feels like she'll be waiting at the starting line and when I call her she can rush out and buy something either pink or blue! And my grandma is super excited too. I want it to be a cute surprise for someone, so I've decided to call a florist out in her area and deliver a small vase of either pink or blue flowers. I think she'd really get a kick out of it. I think she wants so badly to be involved in this with me. And being a whole country away makes that difficult! But I try to call her and give her the updates. She likes that.
So anyway, things are good here. I forgot to take the 'belly shot' this morning so I'll do it tomorrow morning. There still doesn't appear to be much, but it's getting bigger. Dean says it looks like a beer gut (isn't he nice). But someday I'll hopefully look pregnant and not just fat:-) So now the wait begins....April 14th please get here quick!

16 weeks

I know 16 weeks isn't really a pregnancy milestone, but it feels like one to me. Four months...pretty exciting in my world. And according to the bump or babycenter or one of those, the little one has bones growing in his ears so he can hear us now. I guess I should start telling him about life on the outside. I'm starting to feel a little thicker in the middle. I don't think I 'need' maternity clothes, but I can tell the shirts are probably more comfortable. I'm pretty sure that anyone who had gained 8 pounds couldn't fit into their current clothes! So I have bought a few things and plan to buy a few more shortly. Other than that, I've been feeling ok. I can't sleep on my stomach anymore, which is a pain (literally!) So sleeping isn't too fun yet. I am still working on a comfy position. Our next appointment is next Tuesday. And we'll find out if it's a he or she 5 weeks from yesterday. I can't wait. All those people out there who waited...more power to you, but I can't do it! Not because I want to plan, or have to know what color to buy, but just because I want to know. And so does Dean! And we might have narrowed down the girl name...but I'm not throwing them out there yet til we know for sure! We won't be that couple that doesn't tell, I just want to be sure it's 'the one'!
Anyway....only 24 more weeks until we get to meet this little one. I can't wait!

An 'off' day

Do you ever just have an 'off' day? I'm having one today. I went to bed sort of crabby (mostly because I ate too much for dinner so I didn't feel good). So it was my fault. Then I woke up at like 4:30 and couldn't go back to sleep. It's raining and gloomy, a perfect day to be at home in bed! And these crazies I work with are making it hard to get anything done. I'm sick of everyone around here acting like we're in the 6th grade. There's only 3 of us that work full time. We're all grown adults (although that's tough to tell sometimes). Anyway, the short version of the story is, the part time girl made a mistake. The one who found it, told me and this is how the rest of the discussion went:
Her: "Kelly keeps messing up the commissions on these policies"
Me: "What do you mean"
Her: "She is putting the wrong numbers in"
Me: "Have her fix them so she knows she's doing it wrong"
Her: "I'm afraid she'll mess it up more"
Me: "Well you have to tell her that she's making a mistake, or she'll keep doing it"
Her: blank stare
Me: "If she doesn't know it's wrong, she'll never fix it"
Her: Blank stare and she walks away
Me: Eye Roll

So I planned on bringing it up again in an hour or so, just to remind her to say something. Otherwise it will just keep getting done wrong. I think I have a point, if you think you're doing something right, why would you change or ask about it? Anyway, about 10 minutes later the other full time girl (even crazier than this one!) emails me this forward. It is from girl #1 saying that I don't like her, no one likes her, she's just a screw up. I personally thought I was very nice in our conversation. I wasn't mean or anything. Just stating facts. So she's all moping around here feeling sorry for herself. I'm already annoyed by previous encounters with said co-workers, so this just adds to the fire. I can't wait to go home. Sometimes I wish I could do my job at home. I actually don't mind WHAT I do, I mind WHO I do it with. If I worked in an office all day by myself, I really think I'd like that.

Anyway, enough of my pathetic rambling. At least I'll be 4 months tomorrow. I'm very excited about that. And our next appointment at the doctor is a week from today. Now just to get through today:-)

Anxious

I'm starting to feel a little anxious about doing stuff to get ready for the baby.  I want to do something, but feel like it's too early and I don't know where to start.  I have been wanting to check out a local store for cribs for a few weeks.  So today, I finally went (mostly just to get it out of my system). Well, yesterday I bought a shirt at Mother.hood maternity  and they give you a starter gift pack of some sort with a bottle in it and a bunch of advertisements.  One of which was for a baby furniture company. So I checked it out online and found a crib I love.  It's the exact style I have been looking for (and for a lot less than the one at L.and of No.d!)  Although still more than BRU.  Anyway, it appears this local store carries this brand. Perfect because I'm not exactly comfortable buying something like furniture sight unseen.  So I go in there today and a very helpful man waited on me.  Answered all my questions and made me feel like I was doing the right thing by looking now.  I LOVE the furniture.  The crib, the dresser (they call it a changing station), it's so perfect.  Now the only question is, do I need more than those pieces?  Like a tall dresser?  Or the armoire?  I just don't know.  So now I need to take my husband in to look at it. He's a doll when it comes to this kind of stuff, he really doesn't care, as long as I like it.  Gotta love him!!  But I want him to like it too.  

Anyway, it was a fun shopping day for me.  I know these next few months will fly by, or at least the next few weeks. I have a lot planned!  So hopefully by the end of April we can have this all squared away!  That's my goal.  And hopefully now that I've gotten this 'looking' out of my system, I can forget about it for a while.  

15 weeks

I'm a day late, but it's been a busy week.  I went to Detroit with my mom to check out her chemo treatment over here. She's been coming since September but I haven't come yet.   It's at a HUGE medical center attached to all the other huge hospitals downtown.  We are staying at a cute B&B and have had a nice time.  This day has been pretty dull.  We got here at 10 and she didn't start getting treatment til 2:30.  They have to do all this other stuff first before they can mix the drugs (which then takes about an hour) but the good thing is, this study and others they've done on this drug are showing signs of improvement.   She'll be on the study for 1 year and then after that there's a 'compassionate care' law that says if it's working for her she can stay on it even if the FDA doesn't approve it yet.  But it sounds like they're moving forward to approve it!  And when she can take it on her own (not on the study) her regular doctor can monkey with the doses and maybe it won't make her feel as bad.  

Anyway, 15 weeks.  Leon is the size of a naval orange.  Seems big to me!  I am not really showing, but feeling a little pudgy.  I have some great non maternity-maternity pants (as I call them) that are fabulous.  Think yoga pants.  They are so comfy.  Jeans are not really my friend anymore. I have a few pair of pants that I need to go get hemmed that will also be comfy, maybe next week when I get back.  Our next appointment is March 17th.  Less than 2 weeks away. Can't wait to hear the little heartbeat again!!  

Other than that, things are good.  My headaches are still around, but not as bad.  Not feeling quite as tired which is nice.  Now if that 2nd tri se.x drive would kick in, I'm sure my husband would appreciate it!  (just what you all wanted to know about, sorry!)  I'm happy to be having what one of the nurses here today called a text book pregnancy!  

Monday Monday

Here we are at the beginning of another week. I swear on Monday they seem to drag by, but by Friday, I can't believe another week is gone...and it's MARCH! Yikes. Where'd February go? But so far today is a good day. The weekend was nice. We got some errands done early Saturday morning, I saw a friend Saturday afternoon on her way through town and we watched some good movies. Sunday however was a little different story. Dean found 2 very large dogs scratching at our front door to get in around 9am. One was for sure a Rottweiler the other was a rott mix of some sort. Anyway, they hung around the house all day and finally after we drove to some of the neighbors houses to see if they knew the owners, we called animal rescue, animal control and then the sheriff. And 0f course they were either closed or couldn't help us on a Sunday. So I made them each a bowl of food (left overs) and a bowl of water. They scarfed it down! Poor things were starving. We saw them out in the back yard playing and then they were gone. We went out later to look and they were no where to be found. Maybe they were just hungry and then went home. I can only hope because it was cold last night. It makes me so mad that people can't take care of their animals. Maybe someone else will find them and call the animal rescue today when they're open. Or maybe they just made it home.

In baby news, nothing much. I went to the gym today (yay!) and decided to get on the scale (boo!) and to my surprise, I've only gained 1.4 pounds in the last 2 weeks. Wahoo! So total I've only gained 8 pounds according to the gym scale (which I think is probably more accurate than my scale at home.) I know the weight gain isn't a big deal, but I just want to keep an eye on it for now.

And last but not least, I'm going to Detroit with my mom for her chemo on Wednesday. We'll come home Friday. I'm excited to see what it's all about. And we'll probably see my brother for dinner one night. Should be fun.

Oh...and one other thing. We're having lunch with Dean's aunt today to tell her about little Leon. She has been so nice to me since we got married. She's been more of a mother in law than my actual MIL. I think she knows she's an assclown...but anyway, I'm excited to see her and tell her.