14 weeks

According to babycenter, baby is the size of a Lemon now. He has finger prints. Apparently the finger prints are made by waving his little arms through the amniotic fluid and causing ripples on the fingers. That's why no ones are the same. My little baby has fingerprints!!
I haven't weighed myself in a while, but last I checked I was up 6-7 pounds. I'm still hungry all.the.time!!!! I have been plagued with horrific headaches. For about a week and a half now, I have had very sharp pains just behind my left temple that hurts when I move, change elevation (from sitting to standing or laying to sitting/standing). I didn't want to call the nurse because of my own reasons, but it has started waking me up at night from the pain. And that is annoying. Anyway, the nurse told me today that if Tylenol and caffeine isn't helping then I need to see my primary care doctor or go to the ER. WHAT? I am NOT going to the ER for a headache. I might have to see my primary care doc soon for another reason and if so, I will run it by her. But I'm probably not going in unless it gets worse. Other than that I've been doing ok. The fatigue hasn't worn off. I fall asleep on the couch almost every night after work. I worry about the nights I have other stuff to do...how will I stay awake!!
Overall things are going well and I'm so excited that things are moving right along. Three weeks til our next appointment!!

P.S. If any of you out there have tips for headaches...I'm open to anything!!

2 years

I knew this time would come and I often wondered where we would be after 2 years of trying to have a baby. It was this week 2 years ago I quit taking my birth control. Of course I thought I was pregnant the first month....but they don't tell you that just going off those pills makes you feel different anyway! And then somehow I got pregnant the 3rd month of trying...only to lose it a week later. More trying, and trying, a year later we go on Clomid, monitoring, testing, anda paying for all this monitoring and testing. Get pregnant again only to lose it a month later. And now, here we are with this little miracle inside me growing like a weed. I'll be 14 weeks tomorrow and I can't tell you how happy we are to be here. How excited we didn't have to go through more testing, more costs and more pain. In two years I have gained a new love for my husband who stood by me through everything. Knowing this is all I wanted. I have gained some extra weight that I'm hoping to get off after this little one arrives. I've gained a new perspective of doctors and specialists. Our RE was wonderful. He was nice and it was obvious he wanted nothing else but to get us pregnant. And he did...what a guy! And gained a new love for my friends. They supported us through all this. Couldn't ask for better friends!! So even though it took us a long time to get where we are today, it's ok. I think we're both ok with it. This doesn't mean I want to do it again next time. Next time I hope it's easy! Or at least easier!!

Weekly update tomorrow!

Award

I was given this award by Jenni so I thought I'd play along (and it's my first award, so why not!)

The rules of the award: 1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design. 2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with "Honest Scrap." Well, there's no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon. 3) List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

1) I love the color pink

2) I'm nervous everyday for the health of this baby

3) I'm nervous about what kind of parent I will be

4) Spring and summer are my favorite seasons

5) My husband is the best man in the world and I'm so glad we have each other!

6) I'm not a huge fan of my job

7) I have 2 cats who are spoiled rotten

8) I grew up on a lake and love the water

9) My favorite summer hobbies are bike riding, golfing and taking walks through the neighborhood
10) I'm learning to believe that maybe there is someone out there watching over me and guiding me through life

And now for the blogs:

Suzanne

Carmen

Osuraj

Kelly

Ariella

I only have 5, so if you want to do this...go for it! It's kind of fun!

Friday

I'm so glad it's Friday. After traveling last weekend and getting home late Sunday, this week has felt very long. I'm exhausted. That on top of these headaches I've been having have made for a rough week. But my loving husband is going to pick up some other remedies we've been told about today in hopes that might help clear up the stuffy nose and the headaches and help me sleep better...I can dream right? My dear sweet husband has been so good to me. He listens to me whine, takes care of me, everything. There are times I truly believe I don't deserve someone as good as him. I know he's so excited about this baby and that in turn makes me even more excited. I just hope I can make this experience wonderful for him!
I'm headed out to run errands with my mom tomorrow. And he has lessons all day. But we both have nothing on Sunday so we'll just hang out together and do housework stuff. Should be a nice relaxing weekend...can't wait!! I need it!!

13 weeks

Not much to say tonight.  We're excited to be here and thrilled to have heard the heartbeat this week.  I had a rough night last night and today with a horrible headache and a very runny/sneezy/stuffy nose. But it seems to be slightly better now.  After some research, it seems this is common.  Baby is the size of a peach, which seems big to me.  But only weighs about an ounce.  Tell that to my stomach! Ha.  I swear I haven't gained much weight, but it sure does feel like it!!   Overall things are going well. Four weeks til our next appointment.  Already looking forward to it!!

Random Story

So obviously we're over the moon excited about this baby. Hearing the heartbeat sealed the deal yesterday. The best sound ever! And the due date never meant too much because most people don't actually deliver on the date given. It's just an estimate. But I have two small stories about ours....
First the good, it's the birthday of a good friend...a fun way to celebrate:-) And it would be cool to have it on her day.
Second, the not as good. I was helping my mom go through some closets in their house (because I refuse to have to do it alone after their gone!) a few weeks ago. There were tons of boxes from my grandparents house who have both passed away. They were full of pictures, high school diplomas, playbills from my grandpas theater days. Fun stuff to look at. Then we found a small shoebox tied with string. I had gone through everything else so I opened it and it was full of sympathy cards, funeral arrangements, donations and memorials for my dads sister. She passed away at the age of 7 from Pol.io in 1953. My dad was 3, he doesn't remember much. My grandparents hardly talked about her. Mostly because it had been so long, but also because they didn't do most of the planning for the funeral etc. I hadn't ever seen this stuff. It was very interesting, reading the cards and letters. My grandparents had a lot of support through all that. Then I found the book from the funeral. It was full of the little cards they hand out to everyone with the name, date of birth, date of death etc. I opened up and my eyes went straight to August 26th, 1953....date of death. My heart jumped to my throat and I felt like I was going to cry. I can't have my baby on my dad's sisters date of death. I just can't. Part of me felt grateful I never had to say that date to my grandparents. How horrible to have lost a child and then learn your first great grandchild would be born on that day?? I showed my parents and neither had remembered the actual date. It was so long ago and basically never spoken about, so no one really knew. So now I wonder....will it be an angel baby sent to us on Lyn Ann's day? I vacillate between wanting and not wanting that. I know our baby would never know the difference. I'm the only one who would know. It would be kind of a cool way to remember the aunt I never had. Either way, these are my two little stories about our due date. I just hope to have a healthy happy baby sometime late this summer!

Tiny little heartbeat

The appointment went great (all 10 minutes of it).  He came in, got right to business and found the heartbeat.  It was around 160 bpm which he said is great. It sounded really loud and strong (like I know what it's supposed to sound like).  I am on cloud 9 right now.  So happy and elated.  I love this whole process and can't wait to hear it again in 4 weeks!  And we scheduled our 20 wk ultrasound on 4/14.   We were hoping to get it on good Friday because I'm off work that day, but the tech is on vacation that week. Bummer.  Oh well.  I don't really care about missing work.  In fact, I prefer it!  Anyway....it's a good day!  

Happy Valentines!

Happy Valentines!  We don't really do much for V-day especially this year since I'm in Orlando and Dean's not.  I've been here since Thursday for meetings and enjoyed some time in the sun this afternoon. We head home tomorrow.  Nothing new to report.  We'll hopefully hear baby's heartbeat Monday afternoon, so I'm anxious and nervous for that!   

I'd better get rested up for yet another dinner tonight.  Looking forward to going home tomorrow!! 

12 weeks

3 months...I honestly never thought I'd get here. But here we are, with no reason to think anything is going wrong. We have an appointment on Monday to try to hear the heartbeat again. And this time if we don't hear it I'm going to ask for an ultrasound. But for the time being...Leon is the size of a plum today. I'll have to check out some plums at the grocery store the next time we go. I've had a few changes...I'm not near as hungry as I was even 2 weeks ago. Before it seemed I couldn't get enough food. Now I am basically eating 3 meals and one or two snacks....depending on bed time. I'm still tired, but now it comes and goes. I have nights that I can actually stay up til 10! I have been having some issues with lunch time. It seems every afternoon I get horrible stomach pains. Doesn't seem to matter what I eat. I hope that goes away soon. I am feeling thicker. Not showing by any means, but just feel fat. I wasn't exactly thin to begin with, so that isn't helping. I haven't gotten on the scale in several days, but the last time I checked I had only gained 4-5 pounds. I'm trying not to worry about it. And reading these 'mommy surveys' on Facebook are helping...seeing that other people gain 50 pounds make me feel a little less worried about it. And I guess until the Dr. says anything about it, I'll try to put it out of my head. Other than that, feeling about the same.

I'm headed to Orlando for a few days. Looking forward to getting my feet in some sandals! Even though we have had unseasonably warm weather here, it will be nice to go somewhere really warm. Even if it is for work and we'll be in meetings most of the time. I think we have time Saturday to do something fun...maybe sit by the pool!

Monday was Deans 39th birthday...he's getting up there:-) As like to remind him on a regular basis! His parents were supposed to be out of town but came back early and called Sunday night to see if we could come over. I had already planned and bought a nice dinner to make and ordered a small cake for us. So I wasn't too happy about putting off our plans. But we hadn't seen them since Dean told them about the baby, so I figured it wouldn't hurt. Well we get there and of course his mom makes a big deal about his age and how old he is and blahblahblah...But not ONE word about the baby. So I figure I'll wait a little bit and see if maybe they had something for us and they were waiting to say anything. So I don't say anything and wait. Nope, we were there for over 2 hours and not ONE word about the baby, pregnancy, being grandparents, nothing. I knew something would happen, but I didn't expect it to be nothing. We got in the car and it took everything in my power to not cry. I can't say anything to Dean because it's not like he can change them. And I know he felt bad too. I just said that Leon had his feelings hurt because they didn't ask about him. And he asked if next year we can do something with just us, that I'm the only one he wants to see anyway. Poor guy. His parents seriously act like they just crawled out from under a rock. I hope this means they won't have any part of the planning, buying or getting ready for the baby. And I hope this means they won't be having a big part in his upbringing. I can tell you, he won't be left in their care without me around. Their house is disgusting and I don't trust his dad. My parents can do it or we'll get a babysitter if we need to. I don't think about them much, but when I do it just upsets me. My dad thinks they'll change after the baby gets here. Be more involved and excited. But obviously that won't happen after our exchanges this week. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I just hope I don't have to see them again for a while.
Sorry for the long post...but that's what's going on now! Happy Wednesday!

11 weeks

Another week goes by! In the middle of these weeks, they feel like they're dragging by, but we're almost to the 3 month mark...holy cow!
Anyway, according to baby center, Leon is the size of a lime now. His fingers are no longer webbed and he's moving his arms and legs all around. Sounds super cute and I wish I had my own personal ultrasound machine so I could look at him all the time.
I'm still feeling about the same. I get tired everyday around 2 but feel better around 4. Just in time to go home! I've even been to the gym twice this week. And I plan to go again on Friday. I'm going to try to start going 3 days a week. And when it gets warmer I can walk the subdivision after work. I just feel the need to do something with myself. I realize I'm pregnant and supposed to gain weight, but it's a lot harder than I thought. I have a long way to go too!! I have had a little more nausea, but nothing too bad. The heartburn is back. Tums are my friend! I'm not quite as starving as I was a few weeks ago. This will hopefully help with the weight gain. Everyone keeps asking if I'm craving anything...funny thing, but yes...applesauce. Sounds odd, but it's SO good! I think about it all the time! Sick...I know:-)
Other than that, things seem fine. I'm looking forward to the 16th to try to hear his little heartbeat again. Until then...happy Wednesday!

I'm pretty sure Leon hates Tuesdays...what is it about Tuesdays that he doesn't like? Last week I had to go home on Tuesday because I felt so bad and today I am feeling almost as bad. Weird! It could be that I'm just not feeling myself today. Feeling moody, sad, etc. Not because of the heartbeat thing yesterday, I think it's just a hormonal thing. But at least it's after 2....less than 3 hours til home (well, grocery store then home!) Let's hope this Tuesday nonsense does not continue!

1st appointment

Well our first appointment with the doctor was today.  I didn't really know what to expect, all offices are different.  I peed in my personal pee cup this morning (seriously?  I can't just pee when I get there. I have to pee in a cup first thing in the morning and then cart it around all day til my appointment.)  They weigh me....yikes!  And take my blood pressure, which is fine.  The doctor comes in and wants to try to find the heartbeat. He said at this stage there's a 50/50 chance we will hear it.  I'm so hoping at this point that we're on the positive side of that 50!  But alas, after 2-3 minutes he didn't hear it.   He said not to worry, it's still early.  But if I was really concerned and because of my history, he would let me get an ultrasound if I wanted.  But I wanted to be level headed about this, so I declined. He did the pap and breast exam.  And then the internal exam.  Not pleasant, but he said that everything is the size it should be for 10 1/2 weeks.  I haven't had any cramping or bleeding, so no need to worry. And he's letting me come back in 2 weeks for another appointment.  So for now I'm not going to worry about it.  I am not going to 'announce' it on face.book like I was planning on, but I have plenty of time for that.  Hopefully these next 2 weeks go fast!  I'm going to Orlando next week for a few days so that will probably help it go fast!  But between now and then I'll be praying for a healthy, growing baby!!!

Sunday

Sunday again!  Things I'm happy/thankful for this last week.

1) Dean made it to and from Orlando safely.  And he had a really nice time while he was there. Although I think we were both glad for him to be home.

2) He brought me a beautiful charm to add to my necklace.  He's so thoughtful.  He also got the lady to agree to give me a charm I lost while we were in San Fran if I go in to the store while I'm in Orlando in 2 weeks.  

3) I was happy to be able to see several friends this last week. I know I could do it while Dean is home, but it's easier to get away for extended dinners and visit sessions when he's not home!  

4) I'm so thankful that the pregnancy still seems to be going well.  I had one day where I didn't feel too good, but other than that I have felt good.  Praying for all this to continue!

5) Saw some awesome ice sculptures yesterday.  The artistry and talent was amazing.  I've never seen such work!  It was really cold, but fun.  

It was a good week, despite living alone for the week.  Glad things are back to normal.