Private or new blog?

I've been running across several blogs that are going private after their baby is born because of various reasons. The thought honestly hadn't crossed my mind. The only thing that had crossed my mind was setting up a new blog for outside friends/families who don't know about our struggles to get and stay pregnant. I would like to be able to share with them after our little guy gets here....so my question is, do I go private and only allow people I know to read? Do I leave it public and hope that no one has the time or desire to go back and read through all our crap? Or can I move the rest of my posts and start 'fresh' with this one? Or do I just decide that I don't really care and do whatever is easiest?? I'll probably go with the last one because that seems to be the path I've been taking lately.

That's the thought for the day....

36 weeks

27 days left....but who's counting! Things are about the same. Same issues, same fears, same excitements....well, maybe a little more excitement!

~still having swollen feet
~still having numb fingers
~still having a tough time sleeping
~having to pee even more at night (who thought that could happen??)
~still need a few things for this little guy...going shopping this weekend
~still need to clean/organize his room
~still excited...can't wait to meet this little guy
~still nervous about staying over night in the hospital

We have another doctor appointment tomorrow. Should just be a regular appointment. No internal checking or anything out of the ordinary. That will be next week. So should be a quick appointment. I don't really have much to report to the doctor. A few contractions here and there, but nothing note worthy.

I had my last swimming class this week. I'm sort of glad it's over. But it's just one step closer to the end! I'm feeling more and more ready everyday! I know I can never be totally prepared, but I still think I'm ready as I will ever be! I would like to keep him safe inside for a few more weeks....but after that, any time is fine!!

The aftermath

The shower was fun. There were a lot of people there and it was nice to see some of Dean's side of the family. His parents are so weird, we/they don't do a lot with the extended family. So I'm glad we got to do something with them. His mom was only semi-crazy. She basically didn't speak to me. I don't know if she doesn't like me, jealous of me, or just doesn't know how to be social? She seems to talk to everyone else just fine. Sometimes I wonder if she is jealous of my relationship with Dean. Since her husband is such a jerk, I can imagine she wishes things were different sometimes. Who knows. I feel bad that I'm always bad mouthing her, but when I only see her a few times a year and she barely speaks to me, I feel I have a bit of a right to be annoyed. I think I wrote about this before but they bought a farm in Indiana to put their horses on (well the 1 horse they own, they're buying 2 more apparently). And they were there for 8 days, came home last Wednesday and then left again last night and will be home sometime the end of this week. So my question is, are they going to try to make a point to be in town when the baby comes? It's the 1st grandchild....there aren't any do-overs. I hope they understand that. I'm trying to put it out of my mind though....it's not my problem if they choose to not be around.
Anyway, back to the shower, everyone was very nice (except for the 'oh my, your huge' and 'that baby will come any time'....I don't feel that big!) But I guess 80 year old women are allowed to say whatever they want! The food was great, one of Dean's cousins made the cake and it was beautiful. She's starting a little business so I hope I can send some people her way. She made her own wedding cake back in May and it was beautiful and delicious! And of course this little boy got tons of things. A lot of clothes and other things for his room. He's going to be one very loved little boy! Now I have to finish up the thank you cards. I got most of the written, but not addressed. I hope to have them in the mail tomorrow or Wednesday. And then I need to go through all that stuff and see if there's anything I need to take back, exchange or wash. I'm sure a little of all 3! I also need to make a list of the things we still need before he gets here. We have most everything, but still need a few little things here and there. And I'm sure I'll be running to the store tons after he is born. But of course I feel the need to be somewhat organized and prepared!
So overall the day was nice and we both had a good time. I'm glad Dean was able to come and enjoy it with me. I think he had a good time too! Now it's time to try to make it through another week. Can't believe we only have 4 more to go through!! Can't wait!

Baby Shower today!!!

Getting excited for the baby shower today! Hoping for a drama free day from the MIL....

Will update later when I get home!

More appointments

I think I'm going to feel like the doctors office is my 2nd home before too long. We had another appointment today. Had the group B strep test. It wasn't that bad. The doctor last week said they'd check my cervix, but apparently they don't start that until 37 or 38 weeks. I'm glad to put that off a little! The doctor mentioned how swollen my feet are. I think it's because of going to the game, sitting in the car and then sitting in the stands. And it was pretty humid yesterday. They just haven't gone back down. I'll try working on that this weekend! I'm trying to keep them up at work, but it's hard to remember! He also felt around externally on the belly to try to feel the baby. He squeezed the baby's head and it sort of hurt...but the good thing is he's head down. He said that for the most part after 34 weeks, once they go down, they stay that way. So I'm hoping that's the way it stays for me! I think he's been head down for a while though. When he kicks/moves, I mostly feel it up on top and the sides. But from where he was squeezing, I'm pretty sure he hasn't dropped or anything. It seemed pretty high up. But everything else seemed fine. Weight is up (not too happy about that), BP is fine, HB is fine. So overall I think it was a good appointment. We go back next week.

I did ask him about my situation with my mom. She's due to have chemo in Detroit the week of my due date. Now let me preface this by saying I do not want to be induced unless absolutely necessary. I realize that no one can predict when a baby is going to be born. And lastly I know in the grand scheme of things, this is not that big of deal. HOWEVER....it's the birth of my 1st child, her first grandchild and I would like her in the same city as me. So I figured I'd bring it up just to get it off my chest. I told him I didn't want to be induced, I told him I know there's no way to tell when this is going to happen, but I just wanted him to know. And maybe if by my last appointment on the 20th it looks like there's no way I'll be delivering anytime soon, she can go on Monday and get it over with and be home for another 3 weeks. I feel better having them know my situation. Now maybe I can stop thinking about it.

We had lunch and then back to work. Tomorrow is a day of cleaning and laundry and Sunday is the baby shower with the in-laws. I will be glad when it's over. I get so anxious when I have something to do with his parents. Especially after the last shower when she announced she didn't want to/wasn't ready to be a grandma. We'll see how she acts in front of her own family. I am making Dean go with me though, so that will hopefully help. And Dean wants to talk names again. At least to 'try' to come up with a name. I think we're going to start by writing down all the names we like and go from there. And this is going to sound super mean, but I don't really want the first people we tell to be his family who don't even want to be grandparents or have us as a part of their family...I'm a brat, I know. We probably won't even come up with anything anyway.

Well, time to head back to the couch and put my feet up....I don't think they can get any more swollen than they already are!!

35 weeks

Nothing too new to report. Still tired, sore, and crabby. After hearing the story of my aunts friends grandson, I will endure whatever it takes to get this baby to full term. Her baby will have to stay in the NICU for 1-5 weeks depending on how he does. I know it's hard sleeping, my back hurts and I'm for the most part crabby all the time but it's worth it for a healthy baby boy. The belly is getting bigger. He doesn't seem to have 'dropped' yet. I'm curious to see how that changes the shape/size of the belly.

We're off to a Tigers game tomorrow. I'm excited to go. We're hoping for no rain or storms. We're having dinner with my brother too. He has his 2nd round of boards this week so he can't spend the afternoon at the game, but he can do dinner.

We have another doctor appointment Friday. They will do the group b strep test and do an internal check. Yikes. Not exactly pleasant but I'm curious about the whole process.

I need to get some chores done and get ready for tomorrow.

Daddy boot camp

Dean went to daddy boot camp over the weekend. It's a 3-4 hour class just for dads, taught by dads. He seemed to really enjoy it. And he liked telling me all the stuff he learned. They talked about a lot of things we talked about in other classes but also some new stuff. I'm really glad he went. I think he's getting more and more excited for the arrival of this little guy! We even talked names again last night. Still nothing picked out, but we're getting closer!! Apparently Dean doesn't want to pick a name because he's worried he'll find a name he likes better....sort of funny!

Yesterday we went to a funeral of a good family friend. He was 91 and had a good life, but of course it's still sad. But I was glad to be able to be a part of saying goodbye.

It feels like another busy week around here. Work is slow, but outside activities are busy! Swimming tonight, Tigers game Thursday and in law baby shower on Sunday. I'm hoping with these busy weeks, the time will go by faster! I just found out my aunts friends daughter who was due the same day I was, had her baby last night. She didn't want to tell me because I'd be jealous. I want to meet my baby, but this is a bit early!! Maybe in a few more weeks!! But both she and the baby are doing well, so that's good. I don't know if it's genetic or what, but her mom had her and her brother 4 and 6 weeks early too. I'm just glad they're both doing well!

35 weeks tomorrow...looking forward to it!! And hoping for no rain on Thursday!