Another one bites the dust

And another friend is pregnant. She's only 10 weeks so she's not ready to 'announce' yet, but there were some posts on her facebook that were somewhat encrypting...so I had a feeling what was coming. Oh well....of course I'm a little bummed. Funny how different the emotions are when different people announce this news. The last friend that announced hit me so hard. I was so upset. With this, I'm feeling ok. I'm happy for her and excited for her. I'm still hoping to be excited for me soon too!

Only a few more days. And don't worry...after yesterdays post it might have seemed like I was going to go right out and pee on a stick, but that didn't/isn't going to happen. I actually don't even have any in the house (for this reason). So I will go buy one when I need one! That will put off any testing too early! I'm going out with my mom tonight to do some errands and have dinner. So that will be fun. I'm wishing the end of the work day will get here sooner, but no such luck. At least tomorrow is midweek!!!

Long week??

Do you ever have those days that you just want to pee on something? I'm going nuts today. No, there's no way I could be pregnant, but when I woke up at 5:15 (a whole 30 minutes before my alarm went off) this morning, first I was pissed, then I thought...wait....waking up to pee?? Does this mean anything? Then I had to shoot myself back to the ground, no you moron...it's WAY too early for that. Now today I'm exhausted...pregnancy exhausted? Again...no you moron, too early. But you know where this is going. Me trying to decide what is too early to test?? According to the nest and other places 12 dpo is acceptable. Anything earlier than that is just peeing on money. So here we go...it might be a long week:-)

Sunday 10

So I heard through a friend/blog about this and thought I'd give it a try.  Every Sunday write a blog entry about ten things I'm happy about/thankful for that happened in the past week.  Ten seems like a lot (I'm sure I'm thankful/happy about a lot of things, but a lot of them might be the same) so I'm going to start off doing 5.  And I might make this a monthly thing rather than a weekly thing.  We'll see how it goes.

My list this week:

1) Seeing my grandma for the first time since last year (this was a little earlier than this week, but still...)

2)  Happy to have 4 follicles for this first cycle since the m/c (praying this goes somewhere!)

3)  Thrilled to have seen 2 friends I haven't seen in a long time and talking to another friend I haven't talked in a while.  I miss them all!!

4)  Got some potential good news about my moms cancer study (hopefully this one makes the list again in the near future with for sure good news!!)

5)  Excited at the prospect of a good friend moving back closer to home...

So yeah, 5 was harder than I thought!  We'll see how this goes:-)

On the baby front, I have started the pro.metri.um.  I am to take it 2x a day.   Does anyone know if you have to take it in the morning and at night?  I have been doing it in the am and before I go to bed. But I usually go to the gym in the morning and I'm worried about it leaking and being gross.  I suppose I could take it to work, but that sorta grosses me out.  I was thinking if I took it when I got home from work and then before bed that's 5 hours apart....and I could lay down for a few minutes after...who knows. I guess I'll call the office and ask tomorrow.  And for the time being I'll just deal with it.  I guess something will get absorbed no matter what, right?

Here's to a fast, good week.  Praying, praying, praying for good news in 7-8 days!!!!  

Other news

Today is long and boring...I can't wait til 4:00 so I can go home and do nothing tonight. We were supposed to go to a party but I am just not feeling it. I have felt awful all week and don't feel like being social. So we'll sit home and watch Grey's that we missed last night and I might do some baking. We'll see.
In other news, I just found out that there's a small chance my mom can start taking her chemo here instead of Detroit. Apparently our cancer center (that she's been going to for the last 10+ years) was just accepted as a place for this study so the nurses there have been fighting for the drug company to release my mom to their facility because they know what a hardship it is to drive over there every week (sometimes for several days). And the coolest part....they were doing all this without even asking/telling her because they like her so much and want her around. So sweet. I just knew there were good people out there still! She's so excited but trying not to get her hopes up. She will find out hopefully this afternoon or Monday. If the drug company won't release her, she's going to ask if she can at least do the blood draws here. That would save several trips. She'd only have to go once every 3 weeks for treatment to Detroit. Again, this is all up in the air, but it would be a huge weight off her and my dad. I can't pray enough that this works out for her!!! She takes everything in stride, she does whatever the doctors want her to. Doing this study has been so hard on her physically and mentally. Being gone all the time and the drug basically sucks. Makes her sick and feel awful. At least the spots aren't growing, so that's good. Wouldn't want to feel like that for no reason. A little good news would go a long way in this journey!
So besides baby prayers I'll be praying for good drug company news too!!
Now the countdown to 4:00 begins!!!

Thursday already?

So for this week feeling like it was dragging, I can't believe it's Thursday afternoon already. And I have fun dinner plans tonight, so I'm looking forward to that! Now if I could just get this stomach pain to go away. I've had it since Tuesday night and it has been coming and going, but right now it's really painful. I thought originally it might have been from the dil.do cam, since she was really pressing in there. But now I don't know what it is. My belly seems distended and it just hurts. I've been taking Tums, but so far, no relief.
Well...only a few more hours of work and then off for some fun. And tomorrow is Friday...one week down...one to go!

Article

I was excited to see this in our paper last night. It is nice to know I'm not the one who can't have a baby. These poor women have been through far worse then I have!! I'm just glad it shed a little more light on the subject...maybe someday it won't be so taboo to talk about!

Happy Wednesday...we're halfway to the weekend!!!

Holy Follicles

So much for my defeatist attitude...apparently the 150mg of clomid worked!! I had 3 follicles (21, 20 and 19) and one at 15.5 which apparently puts at borderline over stimulated for my age. We haven't been in this situation yet so we haven't had this conversation yet. She gave us the speech about multiples and if we were ok with 3 or 4...yikes. But since we that last one wasn't over 16 we were ok to continue, but she wants us to think about selective reduction if all four fertilize (highly unlikely!!!) So we'll think about it, but I doubt that it will ever become a reality. Two would be great, three would be ok, four? I just don't know. So now we have a 'schedule' and I can take a hpt in 2 weeks. Who hoo! Now I just need to recover from the magic wand...she was really pushing and prodding in there! Poor Dean, the look on his face was priceless during the whole thing! But I think he's excited too...
Now the prayers start...if you have any extra, please pray for one of these little guys to fertilize, implant and stick around for about 9 months!!