Friday

Ahhh...Friday, just the word makes me happy. And now that we're on the downward slide to the end of the workday, it's even better! I don't have much going on right now. I guess I thought that once I got pregnant I would feel different. I don't. Other than being tired, waves of nausea, some heartburn and a little bloat, I feel basically the same. I keep having to remind myself that this is indeed happening. I have small thoughts that creep in from time to time that we'll get bad news at the ultrasound next Thursday, but I'm trying to push them right back out as soon as they come into my head! I know the weekend will go fast (they always do) but next week will probably drag on! We haven't told too many people yet either. I think that makes it hard to feel real too. I have told my family (basically because they knew we were having troubles), my good friends and a few other people. Dean has told a few people too, but hasn't told his parents. His moms birthday is August 31st so I think he wants to wait til then. I'm terrified of telling them. It's not that we don't get along we just don't have anything in common. They are nice but their ideas of things are VERY different than mine. And they don't seem to give a shit that I am married to their kid or our lives. They only call when they want or need something (usually whatever it it is, it has to be done right then). I saw his mom a few weeks ago, and the last time I saw her was my birthday in March. The last time I've seen his dad was for Deans birthday in February. Somehow I got out of Mothers day and I'm never invited along for Fathers day. They've never said that they're happy to have me as a DIL or anything. Never once said anything nice about the wedding my parents (and I) put on. Even though they acted like they did and paid for everything while they were there. So needless to say, I'm nervous. I know his dad has made mention of wanting grand kids (specifically a girl) so I'm sure they'll be happy. But if they say anything about what it is and it better be a girl, or we'd better name it...whatever...I might freak. His mom knows we had a miscarriage last summer and has NEVER once said anything about it to me. No "I'm sorry", no "we're thinking of you" nothing. Apparently they don't talk about bad things. So if they say something about how long it's been or anything, again, I might freak. And I'm sure you're thinking that I'm being a bit dramatic, but his parents have a way of saying things that are totally inappropriate. I blame that on the fact that they have no social skills and hang out with the same hillbilly people all the time. You'd think being golfers that they'd have some sort of common social graces, but they don't. So I'm nervous about their reaction, what they'll say etc. And if I'm having a particularly bad day hormonally, I might just go off on them. And if they think for ONE second that my baby is going to be in their care without me around they have another thing coming. Dean is an only child. And once when I was pushing his mom about why they didn't have more kids she said b/c FIL was so bad with Dean and had no patience. After pushing the issue, basically he hit him and was horribly mean. UM NO THANK YOU! Shortly after that (we weren't TTC at the time) I told Dean that under no uncertain terms were my kids to be over there alone. And thank God he agreed. At least at the time.
Anyway, so now you know the thoughts for the day. I guess I'd better get back to work. Less than 3 hours to go now! Wahoo. Thanks for listening/reading, sorry I got off track a little!! Have a good weekend!!

5 Weeks

My first weekly post! I LOVE it! So fun. Anyway, I don't really have much to update. I don't really feel any different than before the BFP. I've been a little more tired than usual. Some heartburn and a few waves of nausea. Oh and several trips to the bathroom!! That could get old quick. One week from tomorrow is my ultrasound. I'm super excited about that, I hope it gets here quick! Dean still thinks (hopes) it's twins. I hope I don't feel too disappointed when we discover next week that it's not. I wasn't sure how he was feeling about all this (he's your typical man, doesn't discuss much of anything). But he's said a few things that have caught me off guard. Something about buying a video camera, making a list for names so we don't' forget the ones we liked, etc. Kind of fun. I'm hoping when he slows down a bit at work we can talk more about it. I think it's still pretty new to both of us that we don't know what to talk about quite yet. We need to talk about when we're going to start telling people though. I think after the 1st or 2nd ultrasound...that sounds good!

In other news, the weekend was fun. I went to the PGA Championship with Dean and my brother but we got there and it started storming so we ended up in a tent for a few hours while it rained. We finally left around 4 and they called the tournament for the day, so good thing we left. Had dinner and drove home instead of staying the night.

My mom had her appointment at Karmanos on Monday. We were all a little worried because we weren't sure where this all was headed. She ended up getting in the study after 5 long hours of talking to drs and the like. She has to go over next week for some baseline scans and blood work. Her treatment will be every 3 weeks with tests in between (which all have to be done in Detroit for control purposes). So she'll be spending a lot of time in the car. Any suggestions of gifts for fun car rides? I was thinking books on tape? She has satellite radio, but that might get old. She has a lot of friends that are willing to ride with her too, so that might help. I'm sure she'll be learning more as she gets into it farther, so updates to come.

Friday!

I for one am THRILLED that it is finally Friday. It has been a long week of very good news, so I'm exhausted! We only have to work til 4 today, only 2 hours left. Not that I'm counting or anything!!

So I decided today to add a ticker. I wasn't going to originally, but I changed my mind! It is exciting for me to see it there! And I look forward to it changing everyday, every week and every month!

I also have decided it is very hard to keep this a secret. We've been trying for so long to have a baby, I just want to go yell from the roof tops! I don't want to sit here in my office and pretend like there's nothing growing inside of me. I am debating on when would be a good time to tell. They all know we're 'trying' b/c of the m/c I had last year (and they're a bunch of nosey newts!) So I'm sure they're watching me like a hawk. Actually I know they are, I over heard one of them say to another woman that she was sure I was pregnant b/c I was wearing skirts all week. This was 2-3 weeks ago, clearly not pregnant yet. It was just 90*+ that week...hot! I didn't want to wear pants! Ugh...why can't some people just mind their own business. Oh yeah, because their business is boring, so they want to have their noses in other peoples business!

So...weekend plans! I'm excited to say that we have some! (some of our weekends are pretty uneventful). Dean is volunteering at the PGA Championship over near Detroit. A lot of the PGA's in the state volunteer because it looks good and it's fun to meet some of the pros on tour. His job will be to transport players from the clubhouse to the range. I will drive over to meet him there tomorrow and watch part of the tournament. We will then have dinner with my brother who lives near there an stay the night at his house. If I'm as tired tomorrow as I have been every other afternoon, there's no way I can drive home!!! We'll come home Sunday morning to get ready for next week! Yay for the weekend!!

The numbers are in!!!

Beta 1 = 60
Beta 2 = 162

YAY!!!! I'm pregnant! I don't feel pregnant, I don't feel any different except maybe a little more tired than normal! I'm so excited and so relieved to have these numbers back and know that they are good. They more than doubled....that has to be good right??? My first appointment w/ ultrasound is Aug 21st. 2 weeks from today...how am I going to wait that long???? Oh, I'm so excited words can't even begin to express!

Thank you for all your support over the last 17 months. Please keep this new little life in your prayers if you can. I REALLY appreciate it!!!

I am indeed...

pregnant!!! I just got off the phone with the nurse and the blood test came back positive! Wahoo! I go back tomorrow for another. I forgot to ask what the numbers were, but I will get them both on Thursday. I'm ok with not knowing, I don't want to fret about what they need to be tomorrow.

She went through all the dos and don'ts of early pregnancy. What I can and cannot have. So at least I have a few guidelines. Nothing too surprising though. And the most exciting part is I get to go in at 6 weeks for an ultrasound! and then again at 8 weeks! Who knew having IF problems would get you extra ultrasounds??? I'm so excited for that...but 6 weeks is still 2 weeks away.

I'm so excited for this pregnancy. I have so much planned for this baby already. I cannot wait until April when he/she is here! (like my positive thinking???)

Well, I had better try to get some work done....not easy right now, but have to try!!

Cycle 17 is it!

Well...after much hemming and hawing, I decided to test today and....

I know it's light, but as they say "a line is a line" and actually it looked darker in person! I wasn't going to test today, I was going to wait til tomorrow but couldn't hold out! And now I'm glad I didn't. This is the happiest day of my life and the perfect way to start a Monday! Of course Dean was on the road so I had to call him to tell him, but he was so excited. Which makes me more excited. When we hung up the phone I just started crying! Happy crying of course! And a little scared too...but mostly happy!!

I'm taking a half day today to visit some friends and so I'm going to call the dr. when I leave work (although I may sneak off to the bathroom to do it earlier) and hopefully they'll want me to come in for a blood test. I'm so excited for this news, for such a good weekend, and a great day today.

Anyway, in other news my weekend was great. Got to babysit a good friends 2 month old baby. Which was super fun. She was a good baby! Only cried a little. And slept most of the time! Went to a party, picnic, and a fun gossip session! I could go on and on about the weekend, but lets face it, I barely remember any of it now that I have this other news on my mind. I can totally see how women call in the day they get their BFP! I can't concentrate!!! 11:45 get here quick!!!

Some Blog-world questions

So I've been blogging for a while. I came across other TTC and IF blogs and thought it was a good idea so I jumped on the band wagon. I haven't done much research on them or the etiquette surrounding them, so this question may seem stupid...but why do people put periods in the middle of words? Recently I have seen clo.mid and foll.itism. If anyone knows please fill me in! There must be something I'm missing!!

Other than my stupidity aboug blogs, today is dragging by!! I can't wait to go visit my friends and meet the new baby! And this gathering kicks off my 4 days of FUN! I'm so excited that these last 2 hours of work are going to be torturous! I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Oh and P.S...if there's any other weird blogging rule or guideline that I probably don't know, feel free to fill me in on that too! Thanks much!