To test or not to test...

I'm trying to be strong and not test til Sunday, but it's not working:-( I have to run to Target after work today for some things and I know I will end up in 'that' aisle staring at the pregnancy tests trying to decide if I should buy one. And there's a $1 store right next door...so will I go in? Will I stay away? I know myself, if I have a test in the house I will use it. So if I don't buy it then I don't have to worry about it...can you see where this is going? I talk myself in circles...and circles...and circles!! haha...I guess I have a few hours to keep thinking about it. (but let's face it...I'll probably buy one!) Maybe I can at least hold off til Friday:-)

The miracle of birth

My friend had her baby today. Too bad she lives so far away:-( I can't wait to meet her sweet, precious angel. I have seen a few pictures but of course want more. I am experiencing the strangest emotions. There's no jealous, no wishing it were me. Just pure exhilaration for her and her husband and family. Of course my feelings haven't changed for myself and what I am hoping and praying for but for today that is on hold and we are SO happy for her. So happy it brings tears to my eyes...yeah, I'm a sap!! Ha! So until tomorrow...

Ok, back to Red Wings hockey and then hopefully bed (I'm praying for no over time...I really need some sleep!!)

Lazy Sunday

Here we are on a lazy Sunday afternoon....we've had beautiful weather this weekend. Makes me so ready for summer! So far no spotting...WAHOO. I'm super excited but still trying to not get my hopes up (but if you know me, you know my hopes are WAY up!) But I really am trying to keep them in check. Seven days from today I'll be peeing on the stick and praying for 2 little lines.
In other baby news (because as we all know when you're going through something, you see it everywhere), my good friend is due to have her baby any day now! Can't wait to hear that good news (and see pictures!!) And 3 'friends' on myspace and facebook have announced their pregnancies this weekend. Due Dec., Jan, and Feb (a little early to be announcing it to the facebook world if you asked me). Another good friend who's getting real close to delivering. Probably in the next few weeks. Can't wait to see that one either (and find out if they can pick a name by then!!). And last but not least an old family friend delivered her baby on Friday. I swear when it rains it pours and apparently they are all drinking the fertility water that I can't seem to get my hands on! But I am truly excited for each and every one of them. They are all great women and will be and already are GREAT mothers. I just hope I can join their ranks sooner rather than later.
The calendar this week doesn't have much on it. A dinner date, maybe a high school reunion meeting and a med school grad party...I guess that's enough! Ha! So hopefully it'll fly by and I'll be "peeing on money" (as my mom always says) in no time.
Make it a great week!

Week 1 down

Well....1 week later and we're still doing ok.  Tomorrow is the day I'm worried about.  CD22 was the day I started spotting in the last cycle.  So I am hoping and praying to skip the spotting part this time around.  I guess we'll see.  

Other than this aspect of life, it's the weekend.  YAY!  And it's supposed to be really nice out. So I plan to do some yard work and house work and relaxing!!  Dean will have to work a lot so it'll be a weekend alone.  Oh well, at least it's the weekend!  

Hope everyone else has a good weekend too!!  

I want a baby

NFT

Well, maybe some further text. It was a bad day at work. These bad days make me want a family even more. I want to feel like my life is more than this job I despise! I'm trying not to be whiny to Dean...he doesn't need to take on my stress either. So I'll just write about it here:-) But I figure whoever reads this has the choice to read or not, he doesn't have a choice to listen or not...haha! At least the week is half over...2 more days of work.

T minus 12 days

I am asking for strength to get through these next 2 weeks. I can tell already it's going to be a long 2 weeks. I feel like everywhere I look someone else is getting pregnant, having a baby or just had one. Why is that? I assume I'm more in tune with that type of thing, which is why I notice it. But it is still annoying!
The long weekend was a great way to start off this 2ww. Dean was home with me most of the time, which was nice. I spent time with friends, family and Dean. Couldn't have asked for a better time. Got some flowers planted and house work done. I could go for a 3 day weekend every week!!
Well, nothing new to report here...hopefully we'll have some symptoms in a few short weeks!! Fingers crossed!!

Your hard work is about to pay off

This was my fortune in the fortune cookie tonight.  That has to be good right?  And Deans was something about a new relationship beginning and being blessed...has to be good!  I had the 2nd u/s of the week today.  I was hoping for some really good news, but got just ok news.  First off, I left work early to get down to the hospital on time.  Every road seems to have construction going on right now, and I didn't want to be late.  I was on time, thank goodness!  I get called back relatively quickly (not like the hour wait on Wednesday!!).  And I come face to face with him...that's right.  A man is going to stick a stick up there to have a look around.  At first my heart skips a beat or two and then I realize, this is his job.  It won't be weird.   Um, a little weird.  Especially says 'take off your pants'...I was really wishing Dean had come with me!!! But he did fine.  And of course he went to get a woman to sit in there to 'watch'.  He took the pictures really quick.  Too quick for my taste, but it appeared that the 3 follicles are still on the left and 1 on the right.  They were bigger but not as big as we'd like.  Although I still believe that he did it too quick and didn't take proper measurements.  So we're going to do our best with what we have!!  Anyway, after a little more waiting in the office, I got the shot and left.  

So now we wait 16 days and hope and pray for 2 little pink lines.  

I hope everyone has a great Memorial day weekend!